Being poly is not easy.
I know...I've been poly 15 years. I love my spice. In that time we have had many ups and downs. Sadly, for us, many of our issues would not have occurred if people didn't try to control our lives. We had so much added stress from people trying to take our kids, separate us, jail us and more, that smaller issues...issues we should have worked through easily weren't so easy.
We were new. We had no no conception of what being poly was. Jealousy, fear and confusion were part of our lives. So we learned...the hard way...trial and error. We're still learning.
It's funny. After 15 years you would think we would know what we needed but that's not true. As we learned, we changed. With each joy, each hardship we learned...and changed.
I am not the same person I was 15 years ago. Hell, I'm not the same person I was last year. I don't say that flippantly. So much has happened that I can not help but change my views, perspectives and beliefs. Am I better? Worse?
I am me. That's who I know now. Me in the here and now.
I am me...polyamorous and prepared to face my future.